Struggling with Phone Addiction Relapse

I constantly crave information whenever I have nothing to do, and at this moment, I’m trying to avoid the habit of mindlessly opening my phone for no specific reason. It feels like my body is on automatic mode again. It’s really hard to stop checking my phone—it’s just too distracting, and I can’t help but get stuck. I don’t know exactly how to spend my time, and scrolling through the internet seems like the only option. Continuing with my forgotten projects feels intimidating, and it’s hard to get back into them.

The fear of missing out is on a loop. I crave validation and constantly check my phone to see if something is about me, if people are talking about me or something interesting is waiting for me online. But most of the time disappointments hits hard. Nothing. Just fucking nothing!

Anxiety about upcoming life events also pushes me to escape into my devices. Even when I want to spend time reading, being a visual learner draws me back online. This habit prevents me from expanding my imagination because I’m mindlessly and automatically consuming content. Observing how I digest what I read on my Kindle, I notice that it’s as passive as consuming content online.

I hope I don’t continue like this. Otherwise, I’m just waiting for myself to learn and grow. I need to write—write a screenplay! Expand my thoughts, write them down. Just write them down instead of thinking about them.